I've been jumping from the tops of buildings

Bah:

Another update. Today moved, slowly but surely. A couple things have gone down but I mean shit happens and then we move on. Always. I've been loving SA, I love this town, I love the way it is, I love the way it feels. I definitely belong here but I'm not too sure I'd actually live here. 

I've been missing my friends though, I've been missing a few in particular but I mean, I do miss them. I miss a best friend I've once had, and I miss my current best friend. I miss my old friends who have been the best friends to me... well sorta.

I'm on my cousins macbook air, dude it's gotta be one of the tightest lap tops in all of the world, macbooks just get me every time. They amaze the shit outta me, haha. Also I saw my final grades today, I suck. at school. it's official.

is every time not one word? .. what about at least?

I always get those bastard words mixed up. So much for english.

I'm done doing this for tonight, nothing eventful happens. 

I will post later, later suckers.

Found myself today singing out loud your name..

You said I'm crazy. If I am, I'm crazy for you:

Updatinggg you guys: summer is officially started and I've been enjoying every second of it. From partying to seeing old friends to just chilling. I've missed this. So soon (like tomorrow) I'll be heading down to San Antonio (of course) my absolute favorite place to visit, haha. I'm going down to visit family and just have a damn good time. 

I think i'm just ready.

I need to get a job though, I feel like once I get a job, summer will officially OFFICIALLY start. I plan to work my ass of this summer, doesn't sound like me .. i know -_- but I gotttaaa. I eventually wanna get my own place with my frand Sam, but you already know that. 

Dude I saw Star Trek today, (NOT lame) .. maybe a little but I saw it cause it's just one of those movies that you just wanna see even if it's something as lame as Star Trek. Surprisingly it was legit, nothing like I expected and no you don't have to know or watch the show before you see the movie. So yeah, i'd recommend it.

Just got done skyping with Ana beee. Man she's my best friend, like she's the best friend that you've known for years. The best friend who had cancer and survived it when you were children then all of the sudden you ended up on the same soccer team then moved to Georgia and remained friends through it all.. yeah that best friend. 

There hasn't really been anything going on other than me enjoying the hell outta summer, haha. Now it's time to watch Dane Cook. One thing though, I do miss my girls from twu .. only a little, no exaggeration hah. Some more than others but none the less I do miss them.

End update.

I need the smell of summer, I need its noises in my ear

Just an update:

I just wanted to inform everyone after a long and hard ass semester of school at the OH SO wonderful TWU, i am done. Got one full year of school under my belt and it feels nice. ha! but for real, it feels good to be on summer vacation for a little bit, I'm for real looking for a job and I'll be working a lotttt over summer (hopefully) 

It was almost sad leaving tdub today, I mean not all the way sad cause I just don't think it has hit me yet, but I know it will. Well it did hit me a little today when I had to give up my room key, that was a little weird and helping other friends move from UNT, ha idk why though, I didn't even live there.

Anyways I've started out summer awesome so far and I plan for it to be and feel like this all summer. Man it feels good, hahah, it just does. Sorry for all those that are still taking finals, it feels brilliant being home. That wasn't even a good adjective but I can make up any adjective I want about being home because it's so awesome.

Don't know how much I'll be writing in this during the summer so we'll see but I'll be giving updates here and there!

Thursday A.M.

So everyone else is sleeping
I know this is wrong
Dont let it stop you, if you can go
It's 7:30, I witness her breathing
One last sentence, but open the window
I'm gone, I'm fading away
And she's on, I'm on my way

And she pulls the sheets back
And lays her head down
The phone is ringing like it's three in the morning
Is that how it ends?
I kiss you goodnight
It feels so good to be breathing your poison
Breathing your poison

I see you dancing through the fire
Your eye like fire
Make it so hard to fall asleep by the phone
The shadows grow and the flames get higher
And I think about you the whole way home
Does this make you happy? Are you happy?
Does this make you happy?

And she pulls the sheets back
And lays her head down
The phone is ringing like it's three in the morning
Is that how it ends?
I kiss you goodnight
It feels so good to be breathing your poison
Breathing your poison 

They call holidays an option for a reason.

Hi, hello:

Duuuude, this week. It's been crazy, well more busy than crazy but crazy pretty much will do it. I think everything is almost taking a turn. Not necessarily for the worst, I would just say things are.. yeah, just taking a turn. Things are turnin' on me! I have a lot to think about, a lot to digest. I've been doing a lot of thinking, a hell of a lot of studying, and not enough chilling, but hey that's what college is about.

Ready to be done though, with the week. I'm really just ready for summer. I need to get a lot of things done but I'm slowly working on it. 

My friend is in town for the week and it is just really good to see him, I don't think I realized how much I really did miss him, even just like hanging out and doing nothing. I miss it, I've missed him. We had a good talk this morning and I just think I've come to realize a couple of things and opened up my mind to other things too. (smilesss)

i need a best friend,

one that will be here forever, and ever. 

i just want my hand held.

This weekend I will be going home, yeah for Mother's day. I'm REALLY excited to go home this weekend, I don't have any idea why I'm SO excited haha. I'm just ready to have a good time and see my favorite friends :) ... well some of them anyways.

one week of school left..

"that was just a foot note"

ha! guess where that's from?

Have a good tomorrow/weekend.

The distance makes us feel distant.

Monkey business son:

Everything that's been happening lately has just been monkey business. As things are slowly looking up, there is always something just lingering. I've come to the realization that I love change. I actually think I've come to a lot of realizations lately. Mostly about my friends, or what I think friends are. I think that my friends are not gonna be the "perfect friends" I get that. I get that my friends aren't going to be exactly what I need put all in one friend, therefore I have many friends that posses the traits I need to be my "perfect friend". But there are some people that I just put to much .. for a lack of better words, faith in. I concentrate too much on one person or a couple people to be my "best" friends. I really have to catch myself at that point though, I have to step back and think that I'm not gonna have one friend who fulfills my every need, friendship wise. I also have to think that you know what, to that person I may not be everything that they need in someone too. 

I just have to remind myself sometimes.

Back to the subject of change though, I really think that's exactly what I need. I need change, I've been in this one spot or this one situation for so long that now that I'm trying to change my situation I can't because I'm in the spot where I have been. I need a new spot. I need change. New environments, new friends, new people. Not necessarily making ALL new friends, but maybe some new people to be friends with, to chill with. I'm hoping that's what summer holds for me, PLEASE summer bring something new.

I am ready for my friends to be back from college though, I'm ready to see some old faces that I have missed oh so much. I'm ready to catch up with people, hang out, make memories. 

I don't miss it, I don't miss you. I don't want to hear what you have to say. I don't want to see you, or hear you. Pretty much  I don't care anymore really. Have I gotten over you? Well haha,  let's not go there.

Just wanted to throw that out there.

Two weeks of school left: School might be cancelled this week due to the swine. Personally, it hasn't affected me or anyone I know like really bad so I'm really not sure what's going on. I probably won't research it either, I just think that if it cancels school maybe it's a big deal, but they haven't cancelled school yet, so we'll see. If they do, this week couldn't be more perfect for them the cancel school! ha so go right ahead.

That is all.