Everything that's been happening lately has just been monkey business. As things are slowly looking up, there is always something just lingering. I've come to the realization that I love change. I actually think I've come to a lot of realizations lately. Mostly about my friends, or what I think friends are. I think that my friends are not gonna be the "perfect friends" I get that. I get that my friends aren't going to be exactly what I need put all in one friend, therefore I have many friends that posses the traits I need to be my "perfect friend". But there are some people that I just put to much .. for a lack of better words, faith in. I concentrate too much on one person or a couple people to be my "best" friends. I really have to catch myself at that point though, I have to step back and think that I'm not gonna have one friend who fulfills my every need, friendship wise. I also have to think that you know what, to that person I may not be everything that they need in someone too.
I just have to remind myself sometimes.
Back to the subject of change though, I really think that's exactly what I need. I need change, I've been in this one spot or this one situation for so long that now that I'm trying to change my situation I can't because I'm in the spot where I have been. I need a new spot. I need change. New environments, new friends, new people. Not necessarily making ALL new friends, but maybe some new people to be friends with, to chill with. I'm hoping that's what summer holds for me, PLEASE summer bring something new.
I am ready for my friends to be back from college though, I'm ready to see some old faces that I have missed oh so much. I'm ready to catch up with people, hang out, make memories.
I don't miss it, I don't miss you. I don't want to hear what you have to say. I don't want to see you, or hear you. Pretty much I don't care anymore really. Have I gotten over you? Well haha, let's not go there.
Just wanted to throw that out there.
Two weeks of school left: School might be cancelled this week due to the swine. Personally, it hasn't affected me or anyone I know like really bad so I'm really not sure what's going on. I probably won't research it either, I just think that if it cancels school maybe it's a big deal, but they haven't cancelled school yet, so we'll see. If they do, this week couldn't be more perfect for them the cancel school! ha so go right ahead.
That is all.
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