I think I know the answer

I think I know you better:

I've been missing you so, even though I've found something new. Nothing has changed except that I've found someone who actually is willing to do what it takes to be with me. Then why am I not the happiest I've been? I'm missing the way you made me feel, I miss the lips that made me fly. No doubt I'm enjoying everything that my something new has to offer, but it's been different here without you. I don't want to fuck this up, but gah, i miss you.

(Thanks for everything)
I'd like to peel your clothing off the way I always do
And have you naked on my bed, now I'm controlling you.
You know you want it so bad,
You know you want me so bad.

In just a second you'll be asking me to lay with you,
And I am contemplating when I'm gonna make the move.
You know I want it so bad,
You know I want you so bad.

This occupation of stimulation is fabrication of me
I'm aggrivated and agitated, I guess I made it easy
(I just can't seem to get myself out of this bed that I have made)

I'd like to take you on tonight if that's ok with you
It's just the two of us alone, so what you wanna do?
I think I know the answer
I think I know how to melt her
And on occasion it'd be cool to sit and talk with you
On second thought I'd rather not, that's just too much to do

I think I know you better
I think I'll just forget her

This occupation of stimulation is fabrication of me
I'm aggrivated and agitated, I guess I made it easy
(Why did you treat me that way? )

I owe, I owe nothing at all
I owe you, I owe nothing at all
This occupation of stimulation is fabrication of me
I'm aggrivated and agitated, I guess I made it easy
(I just want to hate you so bad but I can't)

We set the wrong course..

& headed due north, that's where we went wrong:

So things have been looking up. Looking up in the sense that things have been changing, for the better, and I have a lot to look forward to in the near future. I guess I take a lot of things for granted, one thing in particular is my parents. I never realize how much they do for me and my brothers, really. It's a shit ton, haha. So yes, I am beyond grateful for my two SO awesome parents.

I also have realized that I have some pretty damn good friends. I didn't realize till prolly like last week that my friends really really do care about me. Not just the "omg we're friends so I love you" but like genuinely care about me. Which always nice to have/know.

I wish finding a decent job wasn't so hard. You have to be completely perfect to find a decent job now a days & lord knows that's not me. Gahhhh,

Happy it's the weekend, but a little upset cause I have a test on Monday,

gonna enjoy this weekend as much as I can though.

But you'd save the best for last..

like, I'm the one for you:

It would be an understatement to say that my life is in every way like a roller coaster. There are very high points which lead to very low points. There is no getting around that I suppose. I didn't realize it until a couple of days ago. It amazes me sometimes to see how much one can deceive themselves. I am so easily deceived. Ugh, stop.

I also tell myself everyday that I'm not going to replace something needed so much once, with anything other than positive things: yet I'm deceived. Although, it keeps me distracted, am I? Or could it be a temporary fix? I once needed this so much, but now I've grown so... numb (the only word appropriate).

-DEBBIE DOWNER WAS HERE.

hahah,

On a lighter note: Summer school is still in session, I'm learning to grow, and I didn't realize I was still enrolled in high school! allllriiiighhht.

I can't complain- in other words.

I don't know how fake feels, so I gotta keep it real

Damn:

It's already July. Someone tell me why summer always chooses to go by so fast? I've loved every minute of it though. Even the summer school and being jobless. I hate being jobless though. 

I'll be in Houston this weekend, which I didn't even realize that this weekend is the 4th! It kinda makes me a little upset cause I wanted to do it like BIG with some of my friends here at home but being with my other friends will be fine too. It'll be good to see some friends that I haven't seen in awhile and that I miss so much.

Question: Where have all the decent guys gone? 

-I keep finding myself running into assholes, or like lame-do-nothing-with-their-lives. That's rude but I mean I don't want someone who isn't going to do nothing with their life regardless of how much I like them. I've promised myself I'm not lowering my standards, and I'm not.

hopeless love, why did you carve your home in me?

this broken heart is to weak to hold your weight..

Short and Sweet.