I want to be forgotten,

and I don't want to be reminded:

I feel like I'm starting off this year right. I have all these plans in my head, all these "resolutions". 2010 will be good for me.

I found a quote that's perfect for my mindset this year:

"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have."

I feel like I have to keep telling myself this. Especially since my dad lost his job this past year I have to remember that everything that I want is not the same as what I need. And after learning that what I've been fighting for this whole time will be nothing in the future. (Hold your head high, heavy heart)

I will learn to be happy with what I have.

I'm not ready for school to start, but I am. I think I'm really going to like my classes this semester. One class in particular, this piano class. I just really want to learn how to play piano, for awhile now. Like i've just been craving it, haha and I don't even know how to play. My other classes are just like intro to psych, gov't., and speech. It'll be a good semester. Now to figure out what I want to major in .... damn.

Ha I almost feel like this is pathetic but it sucks when you're good friends or best friends are in relationships. Not like 'ugh they have boyfriends now' but like it just reminds me of how it feels to be so infatuated or so in love, you know? You hear their stories and you remember what it's like. And you know it only sucks when you're trying to get over someone you once loved. I hate the constant reminder but I'm so happy for those who feel it because it has to be the best feeling in the world. Just enjoy it while it lasts,

For now, listening to Death cab keeps me calm.