Simple as that for ya simple ass

summer school starts tomorrow,

[keep moving forward]

things i'm looking forward to:

SA this weekend

people i love graduating

seeing my best friend next week

good bye to not doing shit all day.

So I was listening to the Damien Rice station on pandora and this is what i came across...

I was just thinking that I have been missing you for way too long

There's something inside this weary head that wants us to love just instead

But I was just thinking, merely thinking I've got loads of pictures

I've got the one of you in that dancing dress

But man I feel silly in that dim light just after doing you by the sight of My Kodak delights

I am sinking, merely sinking

I think about long distance rates instead of kissing you babe

I'm a singer without a song

If I wait for you longer my affection is stronger

I, I was just thinking and thinking, merely thinking

That this boat is sinking

Yeah I'm tired of postcards

Especially the ones with cute dogs and cupids

I'm tired of calling you and missing you

And dreaming that I've slept with you

Don't get me wrong I still desperately love you

Inside this weary head

I just want us to love, just instead

But I was just thinking and thinking, merely thinking

I think about long distance rates instead of kissing you babe

And time is running me still

If I wait for you longer my affection is stronger I was just thinking

Babe, I was just thinking

That I'm tired of calling you once a week

And thinking of long distance rates instead of kissing you

Baby I'm sinking, merely sinking

as well as other awesome songs by

aqua lung

the district

benjamin gibbard

bush

and kate nash

The how I can't recall

But I'm staring at what once was the wall

Separating east and west

Now, they meet amidst the broad daylight

So, this is where you are

And this is where I am

Somewhere between unsure

And a hundred

It's hard I must confess

I'm banking on the rest to clear away

'Cause we have spoken everything

Everything short of I love you

You right where you are

From right where I am

Somewhere between unsure

And a hundred

Somewhere between unsure

And a hundred

And who's to say it's wrong?

And who's to say that it's not right

Where we should be for now?

So, this is where you are

And this is where I am

So, this is where you are

And this is where I've been

And this is where I've been

Somewhere between unsure

And a hundred

Do me a favor, don't do me no favors

I'll handle mines:

my days consist of:

laying out with the girls

shmoke n a pancake

and celebrations of summer

and soon, escuela de verano

and hopefully a jay oh bee .

yeah twice is nice,

but three times is just right.

now he callin' me wifey

and he want to introduce me....:

bah bah black sheep have you any wool?

yes sir, yes sir three bags full.

summer 2010 has officially started and i'm ready to do this.

(pulls pants up)

.....takin' me on shopping sprees, he wanna buy me gucci

Born in December so I am a Sagit...

tarius, maybe just a little bi curious:

It will officially be summer in 1 day! Not that my brain isn't already in summer mode. I hate having my finals so spread out and having my hardest final be the last one I take. ugh, the only final that requires actual studying. But that is what today is for- studying.

I feel like everyone I've ever known is finally on facebook, like literally everyone now. And I am slowly moving on to twitter. I'm just growing to like it a lot more, it's just so simple and easy and it's pretty much the simpler, less complicated version of facebook. Like now facebook has all this unnecessary pages/bumper stickers shit like that. Where as twitter, is just like status updates, the whole time. Everything you think you can put on twitter. It's rather nice, but i'm just saying.

I like summer. I like summer because all my friends come home at one point or another. I like seeing my friends, I miss being able to see my friends whenever (like in high school) ohh the luxuries of high school, i should've enjoyed it as much as i could. it's just different now that I'm home and no body else is haha.

So i had the craziest dream last night, i wouldn't even begin to explain it without sounded like a complete weirdo. It was pretty awesome though, like really intense and i felt like i was in a video game, but it was real life...but really it was a dream.

this is really embarrassing. so we went and layed out on SATURDAY, repeat: SATURDAY, and I am still sun burned. yep, embarrassing. well not really, more like irritating now, I want to be back to normal. I think my skin really did get like a 2nd degree burn or something cause it's taking forever to recover. fuck. AND my face was peeling yesterday though, sick. oh well, at least i'm gonna have a good base tan... but fuck, still.

the other day i told one of my really good, well my best friend of all friends, something that i haven't told her since it happened and well, it felt really good to tell her. she normally knows everything thats happening with me, but this, i never had the guts to tell her. i guess it's just not something you really enjoy being open about but i mean she is my best friend of all friends. anyway, the other day the opportunity to tell her just presented itself and so i told her and i wasn't sure how she was going to react (hence the reason i hadn't told her yet) but she reacted quite fairly. i mean, i think that's how i would react if i never knew. but it was good and it felt good, and i feel we are closer (if that's possible) because of it.

and we both came to the conclusion that she will be my christmas present, a plane ticket to see her next summer. ah, i really can't wait. i miss her, too much sometimes.

you, i haven't seen you all week. i want to hear about your trips and just wanna hang out. i might even miss you a little bit, lol.

other than that, i'm working on being a good friend to my friends. even if they are shitty ones to me, i'm going to be a good friend because regardless, at least i know i've done my part.

ps- people shouldn't assume around here anymore. it's just not a good look.

Unsure of what the balance held

I touched my belly overwhelmed:

Now playing: The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill

So it's only been almost a week or so since I've written. Been focused on finishing out the semester strong and that's just what I've done. I mean I don't have the best grades, but they'll get my GPA up, which is what I was wanting to do this semester. So goal accomplished.. for now.

It feels like a little flame inside of me, deep inside of me. It use to burn so bright for you. Constantly it was put out but I kept it burning, because I was scared of what would happen if it went out completely. Now it's like this dim light, like the candle is using up the last of it's wax to keep burning. No one has tampered with it recently, no one's tried to keep it burning, or tried to put it out so it just burns. Getting dimmer and dimmer until it goes out. but, still there though.

The Spurs lost tonight, even though I know it's just a game and they're just a professional basketball team, I feel like this depression now that they're out of the playoffs. Haha wow that's so ridiculous, not like a real depression, just a sadness. I guess because this the only thing I've felt passionate about recently and now it's over.

I had a hard exterior before you, but you broke it. Now as I'm putting myself back together, I've realized my exterior is harder than it was before. I hope that doesn't end up hurting me. I'm only trying to protect myself from that vulnerability that you brought out of me. So I'll pick myself up, piece myself back together and keep that vulnerability hidden with a better lock this time.

I hope this doesn't effect us. I like the pace we're going, I don't need to feel rushed or be rushed. So for now we'll walk with this, I say walk cause we're sure as hell not running with it, but I wouldn't want it any other way. It's summer now and our futures are different,

let's be strategic.

Everyone is growing up. In their own way all my friends are growing up. I feel stunted, stuck. And even when I begin to move or grow up, I'll be behind. But at least I'll be growing. I'm a little afraid to grow up completely. I'm already in my 20's, that's crazy. I have these dreams, these aspirations. Some are pretty extreme, but some very possible.

You know what I love? I love hearing songs that I've never heard before and the lyrics are like perfect for what I'm feeling or what I'm going through. That's been happening to me lately no joke. I love it, I think I'll make a playlist.

'Cause nothing even matters at all

Nothing even matters to me,

Nothing even matters no more

They say be careful what you wish for,

cause you just might get it:

(sigh) what a long week it will be. i can only take this stress for so long! i swear it takes a toll on my soul, haha. but seriously. school always gets the best of me! butttt i keep in mind that i'm working hard for a reason. i'm working hard for a reason. i'm working hard for a reason.

yeah, and a good reason at that.

(big smile)

i act like after this semester is done i don't have school for the whole summer but of course, there's summer school like two weeks after i get done. sheesh, but summer semesters are never AS stressful.

school, school, school ---> i feel like this is the only thing i do now a days. the only thing i worry about, the only thing that keeps me up at night, the only thing that can give me major mood swings now a days. haha jeeeez.

alright, enough about that. i can't wait for summer! yay, no big plans or anything, summer is just relaxing, all my friends will be home at some point within the two months and it's nice to be able to relax after working so hard. everyone that's in college knows what i mean.

i had a crazy...well interesting weekend. fri/sat(afternoon) > sat(night)/sun, that's the only thing i'm gonna say about that. it's too frustrating, even still haha.

although, i have grown really fond of rugby players :)

mmhm