Still want to hold you and kiss behind your ears,

But I recount the countless tears that I lost for you:

I wish this whole growing up and finding yourself would be easier. I wish it wasn't a journey and more of an instant. Moving past all this pain and hardships that come with growing up. But if I didn't go through all of this useless shit I wouldn't have anything to grow from.

I just wish things could be done with no emotions.

I'm starting to focus more on school, I figured I'd do it right this time around, I have nothing else to keep me busy except school. Why not.

The moments when I'm not thinking of you, are my happiest.

As of now, Ingrid Michaelson keeps me sane.