What I am to you,

you do not need:

I've been having really good days lately. Like, just days where I'm happy. I do things that make me happy and nothing really has phased me. I guess this feeling will only last for a little while longer before school starts, hm. I feel like once school starts all this stress will just overcome all my good days. All my good days will feel non existent. I'm thinking that maybe this semester will be different because it will be a new environment, new people ,and I'll be all alone. My first semester where I'll be by myself. In the sense that I won't have anyone in my classes, no one I already know. It's not like summer school, ya know? Summer school is for like five or six weeks. but a whole semester though, that's like four and a half months.

I like to think that stuff like going to community college by myself doesn't phase me, but in all actuality, it does. That's all I'm gonna say about that.

I didn't realize how much I missed playing sports. You know when you're a kid and your parents put you in all sort of sports, you never realize how much exercise you're getting a week while playing around. I miss being on teams, I miss the exercise, I miss sports. I just miss it, sometimes. (shifty eyes)

I notice that this whole summer has been a summer of just random people. People that I guess I never thought I'd be hanging out with. I've made a lot of new friends and been chilling with a lot of old ones and this summer has really been great. (minus a few key factors) Overall a legit summer. Although, I didn't get to hang out with everyone I wanted to, and not for the length of time I've wanted to. hm.

I've been wearing your bracelet. I don't really know why I wear it but sometimes when I look at it, it makes me feel better. I don't like to admit this: but having your bracelet on my wrist is as good as it's gonna get for me and you, so it helps me cope. I hate having to cope.

damien rice: accidental babies

(sigh)